What do YOU do next?

When it seems all your hope is gone, when everything you've grown complacent and accustomed to turns to chaos and all you can feel inside is fear...Would that be considered your crossroad?

 The determining factor for failure, success or relief in life? If you don't know what your next step will produce but you no longer want to stay standing where you've been what do you do next...

 The decision to move any abrupt way would be uncomfortable and lonely. Not knowing what to expect since you've never done anything other than what you've programmed yourself to do.

It's kind of like, "jump off the cliff or let this animal devour my life." Is there a possibility to survive by trying to fight or would you have more of a chance living if you risked the jump and hoped for the best. What do you do next...

Have you ever felt this way, how did you handle it, did you have that rock to hold on to...

much love,

Justina

I feel confused...

But I am NOT going to lose my faith to things that I cannot explain…

Hosea 4:6 "My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge..."

We need to study to show ourselves approved of God, something that we forget at times. Be careful with your "I think" or "I don't agrre" withs, hence the word "I" we need to learn and study the word of God so that it's no longer "I" but what Is right/wrong According to God's Word.

I pray that God gives me direction and helps me and my family to understand his word and will for our lives. In Jesus' name.

much loves,

Justina

Salmanella in My EGGS?!!

It Just Hit Me!!!

I dont' know why but things seem to always hit me after they happen. Like when my dad was cheating on my mom for that whole year I never shed one tear or gave second thought to what he was doing, sure I was angry at times because of what it was doing to my mom and family but other than that I didn't seem to be affected. It wasn't until after that year I had a dream and woke up in tears realizing that I was holding pain inside from what he did...

Well I guess you could kind of say the same thing about me recently stepping down from ministry at our church. See what you don't know is God delivered me from this destructive world when I was a Junior in High School and since then i've been attending the same church, eight years now. I remember the powerful prayer meetings, numerous bible studies, and the feeling of God's awesome touch during praise and worship. I also remember sitting on the front pew with no vocal skills whatsoever but loving the spirit that was in the house and longing to be a part of the praise team that led it. After prophecy, fasting, and much prayer God blessed me with a gift and i've been in our praise team since.

Thats changed though, now I just sit on a pew. Why? for stupid reasons I guess. A boss once told me that i'm "easily discouraged." whatever to that.haha. But I started questioning alot of things that I've stood against because a lack of commitment from mostly everyone else. No one, not ONE person could give me answers to the questions I had of why exactly we need to do this or that to make it to heaven (and if it's so important and it'll send me to hell then why aren't you doing them) and so I sought them on my own. My conclusions through intense study and prayer have brought me to a stand that is contrary to what I have always believed and so I thought me "sitting down" from the praise team would be best since knowing I now somewhat disagree with "our beliefs."

It just hit me today that i've been "sitting down" for about a month now and my heart is crying out, I know my husband and I sat out from being youth leaders and I do not regret that but I don't know if I can say the same thing about the praise team. I know I can praise God anywhere, anytime, but I just feel like I need to be doing more...

So why am I still sitting out? Partially because I do still feel a conflict in beliefs and I want to be sure of some things before I take another step either which way...This doesn't mean I'm "backsliding," alot of people have been talking to me like I am lol. But I love God and he knows I'll give up anything for him, just want to know what is true in HIS eyes and what it is that he requires of me physically and spiritually, to be close to his heart...I just want to be saved.

wow, can't believe I'm actually writting this but oh well

much love

Justina

Let's Talk Family Movies!

It seems nowadays movies are full of curse words and sex scenes, you can't hardly find a movie thats majorly clean. In my home we have set a standard that we will only watch movies up  to PG, we thought, why bring the filth from the world into our homes when we don't have to. I'd like to share a website with you guys, it rates and suggests clean "faith approved" movies and tells you just what to expect when it comes to innapropriate content so you know what your getting into. http://www.dove.org/

If you have any family movies that you would recommend please feel free to comment below!


So If you haven't seen Prince Of Persia, you've got to see it! It's an awesome action packed family movie that keeps you on your toes! I absolutley loved it and best of all it was really clean, I don't remember hearing any curse words and there were no sex scenes minus one kissing scene.

The other movie I saw was The Blind Side. Wonderful movie, heartfelt and full of love. There were no sex scenes in this movie either however there were quite a few curse words. I'd definitley recommend this movie although i'm sure lots of people have already seen it. I'm not so sure if young ones would be interested in it though.

Dearest,

Justina

UPDATES UPDATES UPDATES!

Hello Everyone :)

these past few days have been relaxing...

we've celebrated my husbands birthday and our wedding anniversary. We didn't really do anything too fancy, we had dinner at our favorite restaurant and got to spend some quality time together. I've been working on a couple of songs, it seems during my deepest moments in life is when my heart cries out to God and I'm able to put it on paper. Although putting music to it hasn't been so easy I'm sure i'll come up with something (hopefully). I don't know I've been contemplating some changes that will definitley affect my life but i'm not so sure if it will be for the best or worst.

Dearest,

Justina

How Do You Know What You Believe is True?

How do you know if what you believe is true? Because it lines up with the word of God or is it that you trust that the people who are teaching you are teaching you what lines up with the word?

Do you really know Jesus, what he likes and dislikes, what he hates and what he loves? How he would that we'd be and what he'd rather than what we see?

How he loves and who he shuns or do we live off of others blessings reading their pages waiting for "destiny".

Open your bible, grab a dictionary learn him for you. Look at his pages without your selfish desires, willing to change and rearrange according to the discoveries that unfold. Let God speak to you and breathe his life through you.

Learn him for you.

Dearest,

Justina